Does this look like the face of someone who is going through a midlife crisis?
If you said "No, she looks too young and fresh" it would be because I chose a moment when I looked surprisingly young and fresh and snapped a selfie before it passed :)
But really, I am pretty much mid-life and I'm having a bit of a crisis over it. My children are a little older and more independent. I read to them every night, I make their meals and do their laundry and clean up after them. I drive them places and make them do their homework. I plan their schedules and buy their clothes. I ask them what they did that day and they answer with
"Nothing."
I'm hanging on for dear life to the littleness of my kids.
The all-consuming, exhausting days of parenting toddlers are waning. I exist to make everyone's lives possible but their lives don't revolve around me. Does that make sense?
So I question many things. The things I don't question are my desire to be there for my family in every way I possibly can, and my testimony.
I just never thought past this point in my life.
(Mom, please forgive the curse. Consider it payback for when you had me watch "In the Name of the Father"- a great film by the way. Haha :)
This post made me cry, and it made me proud because it was so wonderfully written. You put it so well - "I exist to make everyone's lives possible, but their lives don't revolve around me." It is bittersweet, that realization. This moment comes with the realization that slowly, slowly you will have more time again for your own dreams and goals. I love you, my beautiful daughter. How can you be that beautiful at a midpoint in your life?
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