1. I'm a visual person, I like beautiful things. And I think I look better when I'm thin and fit. (Brad, on the other hand, can't decide if he likes me better plump with big breasts or skinny with none :)
2. The future. I like the challenge of sacrificing now to improve my future. I want to be able to play with my grandkids and help my kids out when they are parents, just like my Mom and Mother-in-law do. Being overweight is unhealthy and leads to diseases. No fun.
3. Activity- I love love to be active. I love running, walking, dancing, hiking, playing sports, etc. and I want my body to be able to do those things. Even if I can't do them well, I don't want it to be because I'm fat and my joints hurt. Those kinds of things make my life so much more fulfilling!
4. If the reason I'm overweight is because I lack the dedication, motivation, strength and self-control to lose the weight, I would feel bad about myself. Lack of motivation and self-control are not good reasons, in my book, to be overweight.
5. This is the body I'm going to have for eternity and God wants me to care for it. It's a beautiful thing. Even when it's 30 pounds heavier and has just given birth it's beautiful. I want to care for it.
6. When I am fit I have more energy, I can do more, and therefore am able to serve my family and others better. I can play, clean, cook, shop, work more.
So I just finished my first workout on 2 1/2 hours of sleep and I am dizzy and feel like I'm going to throw up and faint. Isn't this fun. My kids "worked out" beside me and it was fun. For them at least. Ironically, my baby slept from 11:30 until I finally woke her up at 7:30 this morning. But I was having some kind of anxiety attack and couldn't sleep, even when I did sleep it wasn't well. I'm stressed out because it's like, okay, you've had your 6 weeks now it's time to get back to life! Come on, buck up! I'm a sinner because I blame it on my calling. I need an attitude adjustment/ spiritual pep talk. So even if you don't normally comment, please do. But it's hard taking care of 4 other people and myself on very little sleep, so add to that and it stresses me out. So, if you read my blog and you are a Mom, I really like advice.
Post Edit-(I've always wanted to say that!) I love the Young Women with all my heart! They had a shower for me the other night and they each gave me a gift like homemade treats and lots of free babysitting. I seriously love those girls. They just take a lot of time! :)
Oh man, I hear ya! When Ivy was 7 weeks old, I was feeling JUST LIKE THIS. I even had the sleep issues! I wanted the weight off, I wanted to be the old fun mom I was before I ever got sick and pregnant, I wanted to be back 100% to my calling, I wanted to be running 5 times a week, etc. I was so frustrated that I couldn't do it all. But I had to cut myself some slack. And you do, too!!! You're baby is SIX WEEKS OLD. Say that out loud and you'll realize you're crazy for putting too much pressure on yourself. All the reasons you want to get the weight off are good, of course, and you'll do it! But you don't have to do it all now. I found with my babies, I couldn't get into a good groove of exercise until they were about 5 months old (ironically that's when the weather warmed up, too). I find it takes a good 6 months to feel like my old self in every area of my life. Just prioritize everything and get what HAS to be done first. Go for a walk instead of a run if you feel lightheaded! And get the people you work with in YW to pitch in more! :) Good luck, and enjoy your big boobs while you have them. Haha! :)
ReplyDeleteSarah! I did the same thing. We moved back to the Philippines when Maddy was 2 months and that was 1 week after all that Christmas stress. It was so tough and I am the type of person the thrives off a good workout in the morning. I felt completely overwhelmed, scared of the philippine adjustment with a new baby and blah blah blah. I too worked/work with the YW and you're right, they take up a lot of time.
ReplyDeleteI truly found that when I gave the time for my calling He gave time for everything else. Somehow (I have NO idea looking back) I managed to fit it all in. I could run/walk in the morning during Maddy's nap, the other kids would join me or be occupied at school or whatever. The YW would stop by sometimes and clean my house for me! We had super simple dinners that always seemed to be really tasty. Somehow He helped me manage.
Everytime over the last 4 years while we've been here that i've felt overwhelmed, depressed with homesickness or over my capacity to deal I've realized that when I make the time for my calling EVERYTHING becomes easier. I promise.
I too am the type that will always have to loose that baby weight. I hear you on that. Maybe it's vanity for me or just that I love being able to go for a run and burn away the stresses of everyday life. But for me I never got rid of all the weight until after I was done nursing no matter how hard I worked! It was like, I'd quit the boob and the weight just came off. I guess my body didn't need it anymore. Don't stress about it now. She's 6 weeks old. Walking will burn it off just as good as running for now and you'll have the energy you need to deal with everything else. When she's a little older and you have more routing/energy the daily run will come. Plus your body does need extra weight right now. Too bad the boobs disappear with all that extra weight :(
haha, that's so true!
ReplyDeleteI've always admired you because you're so dedicated to taking care of yourself, and not only that, teaching your children good habits. You'll get this worked out, I'm sure. If it wasn't a bit of challenge, where would the fun be in that? :)
ReplyDeletehaha, that's sooooo true!
ReplyDeleteHey guys thanks so much for your replies, I just wanted to let you know what I put on my family website the other day, so you know I feel better!
ReplyDeleteChurch was really good. I've been kind of stressed about my calling lately, like I was back last Sunday, then I had a meeting with one of the girls that night, then I had the activity on Tuesday, then I had a Stake meeting yesterday morning, then I taught today and I'm planning an activity for Tuesday and then another meeting Thursday night...etc. and that's on top of life itself. Anyway, so I complained about it and wrote about it on my blog. Then one girl replied and said she found that as she fulfilled her calling everything else in her life went smoothly. I was like, oh yah! I forgot about that part! So anyway, since then I've had ideas come into my mind about what I want to do for activities. I was able to get a babysitter for Saturday morning so I could go to my meeting and the meeting was at 9:00am so I had to pick up the babysitter at 8:30. Well, miraculously, I was EXACTLY on time for my meeting! That's with getting all the kids ready and out the door and the baby fed all by myself and not knowing where this lady lived and getting myself ready! It truly was a miracle. Plus I slept last night straight through from 10:30 at night until 7:00 in the morning. It was amazing and we were able to be at church on time for 9am. Then today I had to teach and I literally did NOT have a chance to prepare the lesson (but that's because I don't prepare it the week before like you do, Mom). But somehow I felt calm about it. I prepared it during Sunday school (bad I know) and not only did the lesson go amazing, but Afton slept straight through. I'm being blessed in so many ways that way and in every other area of my life too so far. I just know Heavenly Father is being like, see, it's true, you are blessed when you do your calling. Anyway, that's my church thing and we had Roast beef dinner for supper courtesy of Brad. Now Brad is having a nap and guess what? I don't even need one! Sometimes I love life!! :)