First I got my cup of water out of the freezer...
Then I swished it around for a while.
It spins in the cup.
Then I dumped it out.
ICE!
AMAZING!
12/4/09
12/3/09
If you don't like feelings...
Don't read this! :)
I know my problems aren't that bad, I have a wonderful life and I'm very thankful for everything I have. But I think the last while has just been an emotional rollercoaster for me. I bounce back pretty quick usually but I'm just not bouncing this time. I've sort of landed with a thud.
I'm really tired, (hormones and all), and I think that has a lot to do with it. When I was at the doctor she reminded me that I had been there in June for an upper respiratory infection. I had totally forgotten. So that means, just physically in the last 5 months I have had an upper respiratory infection, after which I got pregnant and had awful morning sickness for a month, after which I had a miscarriage and surgery, and just as I was getting on my feet a few weeks later I got the Flu, after which I got pregnant and tired, which brings us to now where I am currently having another miscarriage. I'm not feeling sorry for myself, really, I'm just giving myself permission to be tired.
When I had the flu a couple of people tried to tell me it was just a cold. The day I found out the pregnancy wasn't viable someone tried to tell me I probably wasn't ever pregnant and had just had a false positive. It really bothers me and I can't seem to shake it. Being upset just makes me feel more tired.
But I can't just lay around and feel better. I have two kids to take care of, a doctor's follow-up to go to, library books to return, a preschool to volunteer at this afternoon, a shower to have, a house to clean, and errands to do. And I am going to Edmonton to stay with friends tomorrow so these things really can't wait. At least I worked really hard preparing for morning sickness so I have about 3 weeks' worth of yummy frozen dinners in my deep freeze! And at least I have a husband who cuddles me lots! And a Mom who listens and loves me!
And at least I know there's a bright light at the end of this really small tunnel.
I know my problems aren't that bad, I have a wonderful life and I'm very thankful for everything I have. But I think the last while has just been an emotional rollercoaster for me. I bounce back pretty quick usually but I'm just not bouncing this time. I've sort of landed with a thud.
I'm really tired, (hormones and all), and I think that has a lot to do with it. When I was at the doctor she reminded me that I had been there in June for an upper respiratory infection. I had totally forgotten. So that means, just physically in the last 5 months I have had an upper respiratory infection, after which I got pregnant and had awful morning sickness for a month, after which I had a miscarriage and surgery, and just as I was getting on my feet a few weeks later I got the Flu, after which I got pregnant and tired, which brings us to now where I am currently having another miscarriage. I'm not feeling sorry for myself, really, I'm just giving myself permission to be tired.
When I had the flu a couple of people tried to tell me it was just a cold. The day I found out the pregnancy wasn't viable someone tried to tell me I probably wasn't ever pregnant and had just had a false positive. It really bothers me and I can't seem to shake it. Being upset just makes me feel more tired.
But I can't just lay around and feel better. I have two kids to take care of, a doctor's follow-up to go to, library books to return, a preschool to volunteer at this afternoon, a shower to have, a house to clean, and errands to do. And I am going to Edmonton to stay with friends tomorrow so these things really can't wait. At least I worked really hard preparing for morning sickness so I have about 3 weeks' worth of yummy frozen dinners in my deep freeze! And at least I have a husband who cuddles me lots! And a Mom who listens and loves me!
And at least I know there's a bright light at the end of this really small tunnel.
12/1/09
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